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4.7.02. "You got yourself into this mess, it's not my fault"

"I wish you could just know me better, that's all"

"Don't you get it? I LIKE HURTING YOU. I ENJOY HURTING YOU. IT GIVES ME PLEASURE TO SEE YOU IN PAIN. I'M AN ASSHOLE. BUT I DO A PRETTY GOOD JOB COVERING IT UP."

(sobs, tears flowing uncontrollably....mental pain)

"Listen, I don't feel good inside. When I was little, I spent a lot of time in hospitals. I never felt good since then or even before".

(Disappointment Sadness Animosity Fear Anger Defeat)

(the realization that things will never change) <-----------

"Talk. Say something".

(absolute terror)

Help me please.

"Sometimes I just get in a bad mood and I don't know why. I have to be mean to everyone around me. And then 1/2 hour later I'm fine".

[Invalid excuse]

"It could be so much better than this" -Get Up Kids