Why I Write

Ever since I can remember I had either a pen or a book in my hand. Poems, short stories, journal entries, letters...there's something magical and definitive about the written word. There's something about the labor of love it takes to produce something entirely original and your own.

Something about staring at a blank sheet of paper and letting whatever happens to be spinning in your head flow out and become a tangible thing. Writing comforts me, it teaches me, and so long as I have range of motion in my hand, it's one thing I know I'll never be without. Other hobbies may come and go but writing isn't like a hobby; writing is my oxygen.

I write to create, I write to affirm, I write to figure out what the heck I'm really feeling. I write to explore, to discover, to learn. I write to entertain myself and others. I write to communicate my innermost thoughts. I write to expand on subjects I didn't know I had much of an opinion on.

I write because I love the way words look and because I can arrange them and rearrange them until I get them 'just right'. I write to re-experience things, I write to let go of things, I write to rewrite endings to stories gone wrong. I write to tell others of the treasures I've found on my journey.

I write to feel less alone. I write so others will feel less alone. I write because it is the best therapy I know. I write because on paper my head never has to worry about what to say next, it simply pours out and it doesn't sound silly. I write to keep from going crazy, I write because I am crazy - all writers are, say some. I write in order to see my feelings as separate from myself so I don't have to get stuck in them. I write to release.

Thanks for reading my words. I hope whatever meaning you've constructed from them serves you well.

<3

She's Got Personality..

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I thoroughly enjoy taking personality quizzes. It's fun to learn some of the factors behind your psychological make up. I'm not implying I believe all people come down to is formulas but usually, I find these tools to be quite accurate. I always then want to know what 'type' my dear friends and family fall under because it's interesting to compare and see how similar or different we are. Often, it allows me to have an 'aha moment' where I'll think...wow that explains a lot.

I'm not curious because I want to categorize people as this or that but because acknowledging their unique character traits and beginning to see why people behave the way they do helps move me from a place of misunderstanding to a deeper level of compassion, love, and acceptance.

I've realized that in life, the people I have felt the closest to are the ones who have been not afraid to show their most colorful feathers, or peel back layers of skin with me to examine even the most obscure parts of ourselves. These people were not inhibited by fear of judgement, mine or their own, but instead were bravely honest about the underdeveloped parts of themselves.

I have always appreciated this level of authenticity and self disclosure and I strive to offer this same clear portrait of myself to those whom I have the pleasure of 'truly meeting' along life's path.

Hello Gorgeous!

Hi blog, I'm back!! Really, I am this time. I've been meaning to write sooner but there's just been so much going on in my life and I haven't known where to start. But here is as good a place as any.

Reflecting on prior entries, wow - sometimes I write a LOT. I'm going to focus on keeping my blogs succinct because I know it can get overwhelming to read so much at one time and who really has that much time on their hands anyhow?

But what I promise to give you is a regular peek into my life, my thoughts and feelings, the most fragile parts of myself; to share what I'm learning, exploring, and improving upon so that I can best navigate through this puzzle of a world.

I've been living at the beach for more than a year now and it's feeling more and more like home every day. But I miss my girlfriends in Orlando a great deal because they are some of the most wonderful people I have ever met and I haven't been so lucky as to find close girlfriends yet here.

No matter how well things are going, you always need a true friend whose couch you can take safe harbor on, whose shoulder you can lay your head to rest when you've had a bad day, and with whom you can smile and laugh over a cup of hot tea while you share the lighter details of your days.

So tonight I'm asking the Universe to send me some fun-loving, loyal girlfriends in the Palm Beach area, available immediately for couching, scrapbook evenings and other girlie adventures!

Invictus

Out of the night that covers me,
Black as the Pit from pole to pole,
I thank whatever gods may be
For my unconquerable soul.

In the fell clutch of circumstance
I have not winced nor cried aloud.
Under the bludgeonings of chance
My head is bloody, but unbowed.

Beyond this place of wrath and tears
Looms but the Horror of the shade,
And yet the menace of the years
Finds, and shall find, me unafraid.

It matters not how strait the gate,
How charged with punishments the scroll.
I am the master of my fate:
I am the captain of my soul.

By William Ernest Henley

Love this poem and the movie. So inspiring!!

What Team?!!!

In recent months I have become a full-fledged High School Musical fan. For those who think HSM is for kids and wonder what the heck has gotten into me, I feel the need to explain. First of all, let me say that I resisted for a long time. Despite working at Walt Disney World in 2006 when the first movie was released, I didn’t catch wind of its momentous impact. It was there, trying to creep through the back of my mind but I rejected it outright telling myself it was ‘dumb’, and nothing like the really good stuff that Disney produced when my generation was growing up. The overly catchy songs and dances were nothing I hadn’t heard before. In fact, they seemed a little hyper and overdone for my taste. But how often are the very best stories the ones we have heard before, but told in a completely fresh and wonderful way?




High School Musical is the story of Troy and Gabriella, two characters you know all too well. They could be Danny and Sandy in Grease, or Baby and Johnny in Dirty Dancing. But in this story they are modern day high school students who meet at a ski resort over winter break and get paired up for a karaoke duet on New Year’s Eve. What transpires during their song is a rare kind of chemistry and attraction that will warm your heart and captivate you and becomes even sweeter when you learn the actors were falling in love in real life as well as onscreen. The “Start of Something New” number lifts you up off your seat onto a journey you can’t help but give yourself over to. All three films are dressed in cheesy lines, exaggerated character depiction, and feel-good songs that will leave you sneaking your kid’s soundtrack in the car so you can have your own private HSM sing-a-long as you drive home from work.




After the first movie, the two sequels are practically prescriptive but highly enjoyable nonetheless. The music and dancing only get better and better. But what's it really about? High School Musical is about supreme possibility. It indulges us in the high school experience we all should have had but far from what most actually experience. Still, it creates a sense of nostalgia in us. It is about the innocence and purity of young love and the sacredness of close friendships. Most importantly, it reminds us that if we are able to overcome the major obstacles so many adolescents face like social cliques, insecurities, and the uncertainty of our futures, and learn to be ourselves and follow our hearts, we truly are unstoppable. A simple message but an invaluable and inspiring lesson. Go Wildcats, Game On!!



So which is the best movie of the series you wonder? Well you might just have to watch and find out..