Soft Landing

Standing outside saying our goodbyes
Where will this departure take us?
Not sure where to pull strength from
Trying to focus on the negative
But all I can feel at this moment
Is a great sense of loss

Trudging up the stairs, bleary eyed
I trip on the last step, wondering if I should look back
Still hearing your voice echo in the breezeway
As you cheerfully bid farewell to the neighbors

I wonder how your emotion can be so removed
In our final moments together
You rationalize that you've known it was coming
So did I but the pain still cuts deeper than I would imagine

There you go, leaving your--our past behind
Back to your friends and family up north
As I'm left here to pick up the peices of my life
This perfect palm tree paradise
It never was your style

Reaching for my phone as I close the door
Hands shaking as I dial her number
"He's gone" is all I can manage to get out
Minutes later she's standing in my apartment
I'm relieved to have some company

She's got an overnight bag in hand, knowing this first night will be the hardest
We embrace tightly, both trying to grip onto to something
Her situation ironically similar to mine, we release our tears together
It feels cleansing to cry though we know the pain won't lessen anytime soon
We put our feelings on the table, examining every angle

Then suddenly, knock on the door
Oh no, don't make me say goodbye again
It's your brother, he wants to wash his hands
Got dirty packing up the truck
Wiping my face
I nod him towards the bathroom
As I wash away
Our love